— kamdevay\\ nm:
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mare Aaje k>[k khevu 0e, k>[k qas, k>[k Aevu je maru +vn quLlu paDe, iblkul invRSt/. b2u khIx Aaje hu, hu Kya saCco hto, Kya saCco nhoto, Kya vasnane kabU krI xKyo, Kya n krI xKyo. b@2e b2u.
kabUma p` htu, Ae b@2e b@2u. pr>tu btaDo Aevo mnu*y mne je potane kabUma raqI xKyo hoy.
ikSsaAo An>t 0e. @yan n4I Kya4I xru kru k>[ rIte xru kru. Hu ko[ leqk n4I ke ko[ klakar n4I. ke mo3a wage jemne bI=na +vnma DokaCyu krva isvay, kravDavva isvay k>[ kam hotu n4I. p` Ae3lu jrur SvIkarIx ke kamnI lgnI jrur hoy 0e.
SkUlna phela ikSsa4I j xru kru.
dsma 2or`na irzL3no idvs hto. Hu +vnma kdI mara pPpanI Ape9a pr qro ]tyoR n4I. Aa vqte p` Aevu j k>[k htu. Aemne Aaxa htI ke Aemno idkro is|er4I v2u 3ka lavxe. jemne lavta lavta mara ma4e 3ko 4[ jvano hto.
p>cavn 3kava5ane ko` Agyarmama sa[Nsma AeDmIxn Aape. pPpanI jem mney Aa vatnI ic>ta nhotI. Hu =`to hto ke pPpana xhernI mo3a wagnI SkUlona mo3a wagna §S3IAo sa4e sara sMb>2 0e. Kya>kne Kya>k to mne se3 krI j dexe.
me pPpane kh\\yu ke mare Aag5 w`vanI shejey [C0a n4I, mare 2>2o krvo 0e, pEsa kmavva 0e, w`va4I iDg/I leva4I ma`s nOkr bne, xe# nhI, Ane Aemey tme potanI =tne j kem =e[ n4I leta, tme xu l[ne Aavela Aa xherma, toye Aa3lu mo3u AeMpayr kyuR ne ]wu... mare n4I w`vu yar. tme smjta kem n4I vatne.
Aa3lu khIne hu mara rUmma jto rh\\yo, marI AlmarI qolI, Aena Aek qanama Aek fo3o rheto, Aek devno, jena ]6aDa bdn pr qas 7<>gar n4I, jene nankDu Aek mug3 0e, jenu vahn pop3 0e, je deqavma c>¸devney [*yaR jgave Aevo 0e.
be] ha4 =eDIne, me Aa>q b>2 krIne, mara j bnayela m>t/nu r3` krvanu calU kyuR, roj jem, ‘— kamdevay\\ nm:’
stu hu d2 krI de to Aa t/`ey dev nvra2Up 4[ =y.
Ane Aemey tmare =e ko[ mnu*yne Aena +vn p/Tye ke3lo ]Tsah 0e Ae =`vu hoy to Ae k>[ rIte +vn psar kre 0e Ae nhI, Aene AenI kamvasna p/Tye ke3lo ]Tsah 0e Ae =`I Lyo. Ae3lu k j =`I Lyo. bakInu b2u AapoAap j`a[ jxe.
pr>tu mara DohaAe mne se3 kyoR ne kyoR j, AGyar sa[Nsma, xhernI sarI SkUlma.
nvI SkUl htI, pa3lIAo jUnI htI, 0okrIAo nvI htI, Aemna Qyalo jUna hta... Ane hve marama ko[ spna rh\\ya n hta, n nva, n jUna, nkru qalIta, jema k>[ ]mervana rSta p` b>2 4[ gyela. me j krela.
xruAatma hu Aem nem Aek qU`anI pa3lI pkDI leto, phela jem prvah rhetI nhotI ke maro deqav kevo 0e, ma>kDamo!a5a 3Icr Aavta rheta, hu bgasu qato rheto, Ae jta rheta, nvo iprIyD, nva bgasa,
xu krvanu htu k>[ qas smjwyaR ivcaro Aakar leta nhota, bs sakar n 4yela b5vaAo 6Umraya rheta... Ane Aa sOma Aek ivcar mjbUt bnto gyo, mara jevo yuvan Aap`a dexno wiv*y 0e. ne Aap`a dexnu wiv*y A>2karmy 0e...
p` me smy p/Tye Aak/amk Aiwgm ApnaVyo nhoto. bLke hu phela krta v2u xa>t 4[ gyelo. Hu nhoto =`to ke mare xu pamvu 0e. mare hve pEsaye pamva nhota. Aevu p` n4I ke hu harI rhelo. pr>tu +t trf Aag5 v2vanI wagmwag p` marama nhotI. ne smy Aena krtaye v2u wU>Do hto. hu to mapIye nhoto, AvlokIye nhoto, in*k8IRye nhoto xkto, ke +t 0e p` hve xema...
Tyare... iblkul ne iblkul Tyare... hu harvanI m>+le pho>cva4I qas dUr nhoto Tyare... hu potane wUlI jva4I qas dUr nhoto Tyare... Tyare k>[k 4yu... Ane ha, me +vn4I Aaxa nhotI raqI ke Aavu 4xe...
Aaxa to phela p` nhotI raq, toye Aava pirvtRn Aavela j ne.
Aek mihla Klasma Aa[ne ]wI rhI. irsesma lf>Drba+ krta ne bemap xrartI 0okraAo p` sUNn 4[ gya, inta>t inrvta, prm xa>it, idVy sNna3o, Ane 0okrIAo p` Aa>qnu m3ku hlaVya ivna Aemne 3k3kI ba>2I =eye rhI. =eye j rhI... Ane 0okraAo to Aemna bI= j ko[ m3ka =evama mdmSt.
Aemne =e[ne hu to mnemn Aa3lu j bbDI xKyo, je me SkUl calU 4yana Aa3la 3a[m bad r3\\yu’tu, ‘— kamdevay nm\\:’
Ane hu hju su2I iv&vas n4I krI xKyo ke hu Aa t/` xBd Aaqa bolI k>[ rIte xKyo, Jyare Aemne =eto hto, Jyare 0okraAona xBd g5ama A3kI pDela, Jyare mo!ama4I la5 3pkI pDe fKt Ae3lI j var htI.
Aog`t/Isek salnI Aaspas hxe. ka5I saDI pherelI. yOvn4I trbtr ilSsa gal. ho# pr gulabI pD cmktu. qULlI jULfo kmr su2I xrart krtI htI. kmrna v5a>ko pr nammat/ crbI htI. Bla]z p` mapsrnu 0atI bhar Aavtu htu. ma>gma pnotIyu is>dUr. ha bs Aa3lu j htu, bI=e ko[ =tno x`gar nhI, k>[ j nhI, qUb qUb qUb sadI,
p` +vnma narI=tIna ko[ A>xne =e[ne 4yu nhI Ae Aamne =e[ne 4yu, 4yu ke pa3lI4I ]wo 4[ne doDI j], doDI j[ne Aemne we3I j pDu, we3I j pDu ne ca>c4I ca>c imla[ j d]...
4>wI gyela smyne Aem`e prt vheto kyoR, ‘Aap swI bE# skte hE. mE Ama[ra sKsena. kemeS§I kI AapkI n[ meDm.’
Ane Ama[ra BlekboDR pr DS3r doDavva lagI.
Ane hUXn4I bahox wrela ko[ mUlknI sEr krIne Ame sO pa0a fyaR. pr>tu behoxI to lgwg lgwg sOna chera Ane xrIrma fU>faDa martI j htI.
3Icrno pa0lo wag to Aagla wag krtaye v2u =lImIyt vrtavto hto, Amara jeva duinya4I beqbr 0okraAo pr.
Ane [*yaRma 2umaDo 4[ rhelI 0okrIAo pr p`.
BlekboDRno ]plo wag saf krva Ae`e potanI kmr ]>ckI Tyare j[ne Amne gtagm pDI ke manv=t pr ATyacar krva kudrte ih3lr bad kone mokLyo.
‘merI gujratI AwI tk [tnI saf nhI hu[ hE. Aap sb se ihNdI me bat kru to ko[ idKkt to nhI hogI na...’
‘Are vlIw[na va5 je3lIye idKkt nhI hogI ko[ney...’ ko[ cOdx bbDI, ‘ihNdI xu, tm tmare mra#I b>galI ]dUR p>=bI, jema vat krvI hoy kro. tme to qalI vat kro meDm.’
‘Kya kha Aapne?’ meDm marI samu =e[ne mlkaya.
hu pa3lI4I ]wo 4yo, ‘Ae3le ihNdI ya [>GlIx... +sme bolna hE bolo. Hm sb smj jaye>ge.’ tmaru ATyarsu2I n boleluye Aa3lu sm+ lI2u, to bolelu xu cIj 0e.
mne =e[ rhelI AemnI njroma xu htu. xu ko[ =tno sMmohn? Aa te kevu Aak8R`. jene Aaj phela mara xrIrna AavegoAe kdI wa%yo nhoto. bs AemnI njro, njro pa05 rhela iv&vma DUbI mrvanI tmNna. Ha, hu Aam j to gumxuda 4va ma>gto hto.
‘4e>Ks...Aoke sI3 sI3...’ Ane marI same4I njr h3avta phela Aem`e mara pr njr Aek pl v2u iS4r raqI htI. Aa vqtey Ae mlkayela.
p` phelana mlkavama ne ATyarna mlkavama fer hto. mara ma3e b2u sm+ jva ma3e Aa3lu kafI htu.
Aa3lu kafI n htu Aem, mara4I njro h3aVya bad, Aem`e Klas4I vat krta krta potanI Aa>g5IAo grdn pr 6sDIne potanI jULfo srqI krI... ko[ 0okrane =eya bad ko[ 0okrI trt =e potana 7<>gar pr @yan Aape 0e to sm+ jvu, Ae 0okraAe Ae 0okrInI @yansa2na w>g krI dI2I 0e.
‘to Aap sb barI barI se Apna [N§o muze de>ge.’ Aem`e Klasma =herat krI.
‘Are Aap Ab tk qDe Kyo hE. bE# =[Ae.’ mne =eye rhI Aem`e kh\\yu.
‘mem mereko 4oDa bahr =na hE. kam hE.’ Ane hu A>droA>dr pIsato rh\\yo ke Aa 3a!o kem n4I 4to.
‘Kya kam hE bolIye. AwI AwI to irses qTm hu[ 4I.’
‘=na hE kam hE.’
Aem`e Aa vqte xBdno sval n kyoR, qalI svalInjre =eye rhI.
‘lgI hE, [mrjNsI hE, mUtrDI.’ me jm`a ha4nI 3clI Aa>g5I btaDIne khI j dI2u. kdac Aam krva4I mara Aavegono A>g 3a!o 4[ xkxe.
4yoye qrI.
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Klas [N§o Aapva }wI 4tI rhI. Aawar meDmne, ke 4oDI 6`Iye #Ik lagtI je 0okrIAona nam mne ATyarsu2I nhota @yan, Ae hve =`va mLya.
‘seKsena meDm ma[ nem [z dev p3el... dsvIme pcpn 3ke... papa kNs§Kxn ibznes me hE.’ varo Aavta me kh\\yu.
Klas mo>hfaD h>sva ma>DI. Ane mne @yan pDtI n’tI ke h>svalayk me Aama xu khI dI2elu.
‘dev vo sKsena hE, seKsena nhI...’ Aemna chere A`gmo z5Kyo, ‘nIknem khna wUl gye. ko[ bat nhI, neKS3.’
Ane bakInaAono n>br Aavva ma>D\\yo. Ha, mne qo3u laGyu, hu Aemne saru n lgaDI xKyo to k>[ nhI, qo3uye nhotu lgaDvu =e[tu’tu, wle ne A=`tama j kem nhI.
Ame cahta to nhoto ke Aavu 4ay. iprIyD ptvano 6>3 s>w5ayo.
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‘sorI sorI meDm... mera Aesa ko[ [rada nhI 4a. irylI verI 3\\rUlI ha3RlI DIplI sorI.’ Klas 0oDIne lobIma calta meDmne j[ne me kh\\yu. [>GlIx, je3lu AavDtu’tu, b2u na>qI dI2u.
AemnI n+k pho>ctanI sa4e mne Aek mhek sU>6a[, Aemna quXbudar +Smne v2u mhekavta prFyumnI. mne n4I @yan ke Ae kyu prFyum, ke [t/, ke DIAo, ke vo3Aevr je hoy, mne to bs Ae3lI j @yan, Ae mhekma madkta htI, Aek ivict/ =tnu qe>cav, je khetu htu, vhI jvanu, ko[ bI= j lok4I AavelI Aa APsrama sma[ jvanu. Ae je khe, Ae j sa>w5vanu, bIlkul cUpcap, bs sa>w5vanu, AenI +wne, Aena rsdar ho#one, Aena ilSsa cherane, Aena n3q3 nyno Ane rexmI kexo Ane tnbdnna k`ek`ma vheta drekedrek [Xkne, bs sa>w5vanu. bs sa>w5vanu.
“tuMharI le>Gvej me khu to, ‘k>[ va>2a nhI. Aag54I @yan rqna.’” Ae pl3I.
me mhekne fefsana }>Da 4[ xke Ae3la }>Da 0eDa su2I qe>cI ]tarI, “‘rqna’ glt xBd hE, vo ‘raqje’ hota hE.’”
‘Aoh.. may imS3ek...sorI sorI. muze lgta hE kI tuMharI gujratI isqne ke muze 3\\yuxn lene kI jrurt hE.’
‘k>[ va>2a nhI. Aag54I @yan rqna.’ khI me iSmt kyuR.
Ae h>sI.
Ane jva lagI.
‘tum mere sa4 sa4 Kyo cl rhe ho? neKS3 iprIyD calU ho gya hoga na.’
‘Aapse Aek bat krnI hE.’ me =eyu ke iprIyD ptta potpotanI KlasnI bhar nIk5I bI+ Klasma jta sahebonI Avrjvr htI lobIma. me =eyu ke Aek p` saheb Aevo n hto ke je Ama[ra meDmne 6uvDnet/ takItakIne =eto n jto hoy, jvana bad p` pl3I pl3Ine =evanu cUkto n hoy,
Ama[ra meDm p` jta sahebone ‘guD moinR>g guD moinR>g’ khetI rhI. Aek saheb to v5gI pDela. 0oDto j nhoto. ‘kevo rh\\yo idvs’ ‘kevI 0e SkUl’ ‘keva 0e S3UDe>3\\s’
Ae sahebe mne kh\\yu, ‘dev bhar kem rqDe 0e? iprIyD 0e nhI tare?’
‘0e 0e. ha bs j] ip/NsIpl saheb. Aa 4oDu kam htu meDmnu.’
ip/NsI jto rh\\yo.
meDm p` jva lagI. AemnI sa4e huye, ‘Kya kam hE mera dev?... vEse me nIknem se bat krna Jyada ps>d krtI hu. tumne Klas me wI btaya nhI 4a tuMhara nIknem.’
S3afrUmnI bhar Aa[ne Ae A3Kya. marey A3kvu pD\\yu. ‘merI kemeS§I bhot kCcI hE, iblkul vEsI jEsI AapkI gujratI... Agr Aap muze ]ske 3\\yuxn de ske to AC0a rheta. Aapka =e wI wav ho mE de skta hu.’
Aemna jDbe da>t wI>svano ]war deqayo. Ane Aa vqtey mne @yan n pDI ke hu Kya qo3a 0u.
‘vo mera wav nhI, Agr mE tuMhe 3\\yuxn detI hu to ]ska wav hE...’
me frI, AavDtu b2u [GlI>x na>qIne sorI kh\\yu, ‘muze lgta hE kI muze ihNdI isqne ke 3\\yuxn lene kI jrurt hE.’ me Aa>g5IAo4I kpa5 q`ta khelu. mara p0\\tavano sUck.
‘ha vo to hE. lekIn me tuMhe 3\\yuxn nhI de sktI. [s SkUl ke 3IcsR ko psRnl 3\\yuxn dena Ala]D nhI hE, tum =nte ho na ye bat. ye bat Alg hE kI muze pEso kI sQt jrurt hE, lekIn muze SkUl ke intIinym toDne kI wI jrurt nhI hE...’
AenI ma>gma wrelu pelu pnotIyu is>dUr me frI =eyu. Aano vr xu kmato krto n4I ke Aane potane pEsa kmavvanI sQt jrurt hoy.
‘jEsI AapkI mr+ meDm. Agr Aap muze 3\\yuxn detI to mE Aapko Aapka nhI, Aapke 3\\yuxn ka AC0a qasa wav deta.’ hu jva laGyo.
mara Aag5 n w`vana fEsla pr pPpaAe potanI ih3lrgIrI clavelI Tyar je3lI inraxa ATyare 4[ rhelI.
‘inym mE nhI toD sktI. AOr inym hE kI yha ka ko[ 3Icr iksI S3UDe>3 ko psRnl 3\\yuxn nhI de skta. lekIn ko[ S3UDe>3 iksI 3Icr ko psRnl 3\\yuxn to de hI skta hE na. AOr vo gujratI isqne ke 3\\yuxn wI to ho hI skte hE na.’
mne pa054I k>[k s>w5ayu.
‘vEse tum kemeS§I isqne ka Kya wav doge?’
‘Aap =e bolo... Aapka to ku0 wI wav dene ko tEyar hu.’
Hve Ae`e rheva j dI2u ke Ae wav Aena kemeS§I 3\\yuxnno hto ke bI= ko[no.
+SmnI drek nsma frI v5elI quxI me chera pr Aavva dI2I nhI. xa>t s>YymIt 2Ir j rh\\yo. p` dlDu to nacI ]#\\yu’tu. p` SkUlnI idvaro qDqDa3 mara pr h>sI rhI’tI...
Ae v5I. Ae S3afrUma jtI 4[.
Hu nIca mo!e khI j ]#\\yo, ‘sKsena nhI, seKsena meDm, vEse wI mera to 6r me hI nIknem dev hE. bakI bhar sb doStlog to muze kamdev khke hI bulate hE.’ doSto j =`e 0e l9`o mara.
Ae v5I. Aena pI jva layk ho#o pr, Aena ms5I deva layk galo pr, iSmt htu, Ane htI, Aa iSmt jevI j luCca[, trselI Aa>qoma p`.
‘gujratI ke Alava wI gujrat ke bhot r>g Aapka ye ix*y Aapko isqayega.’ bbDIne Hu v%yo. jto 4yo. p` tmne hu k>[ qo3u nhI khu, tmara4I hu k>[ 0Upa[x nhI, 0eLle mne, AenI gOrI gOrI kmre vhetI prsevanI 6arne +w4I ca3I jvanI [C0a 4[ AavelI.
Svawaivk 0e marI Aa prmpUJy meDmne p/Xn hxe j ke hu Kya caLyo.
Ane jta jta j, pa05 =eya vIna j me Aemna p/Xnno jvab AaPyo. Ane Aa jvab xBdrUpI nhI, [xararUpI hto.
me Aa3lo j [xaro krelo. jm`a ha4nI 3clI Aa>g5I j btaDelI.
pr>tu xu hve Aam krva4Iye mara Aavegono A>g 3a!o 4[ xkxe qrI?
me Aa b2I k
‘— kamdevay\\ nm:’
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